Sunday, May 2, 2010
For the past 2 nights i had been out with a very special someone.We chatted till 3am+ below her block.I found it amazing in a sense i had never strive so hard for a girl before.TOTALLY AMAZING!but sad to say on the second night,we were sharing our life experience with each other.It totally remind me of a very sad and painful past.How lonely i was that time plus 2 girls ditch me in a week.Can u imagine it was my first time dating then.I felt totally cheated!One of the girl then ditch me for another guy.I remembered it was that period of time i seek acceptance from all my friends.My friends deemed me as childish thus didnt want to hang out with me.I went through that time on my own.It was painful but i didnt regret going through that past.It help me grow much more in terms of maturity.Now i have the same maturity lvl as a person in mid 20's.Im in a sense much more stronger now.The 2 girls that ditch me had shattered me totally into specks of shiny crystal.unable to replace the old me but only create a new me.This is the new me right now........cheerful,serious at point of time,full of self confidence and esteem!Now that i had felt the shatterness,i don't think i can be shattered further.The most it can just remind me of the past.
I feel that im still gonna strive on to hold on to u,im not gonna let u go because i know i am falling for u.It doesn't matter how deep i fall for u now.If u remember i told u that night,i am full of self confidence,i don't wait for things to happen but i make things happen.I believe i have what it takes to change the world,anything in this world.It's all because of the faith and the confidence i have.All that im asking from u now is not to let me go.Oh girl please!
{ Sunday, May 02, 2010 }